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Characters: Katina, Subaru, and Akiha
Date: ~~I'll get back to you on that in a moment~~
Summary: Nightmare make relationship go BOOM
Warnings: Smooches? Anger? Poooossible violence?

...the well had given her some advice, she supposed. That was good advice, right? Talk it out. Deal with the consequences. Try not to hurt anyone any more than you already are you dumb bitch.

But those nightmares, if she could call them that, were her own thoughts, her own mind, with a voice reassuring her beneath it all. When did she start letting people push her around? Sure, when she was absolutely dumb and wrong, Russell had gotten away with putting her back on track, but that was rare. She took charge and she took what she wanted and did what she wanted and people listened. Even if people she couldn't fight didn't like it, she could be persuasive when pressed.

Now Akiha was pushing her around, had a collar on her, and she was crying and desperate over her and Subaru, letting how they feel decide things that she should be deciding, making it painful for her to do what was just coming naturally. Ha, like they knew the real her. She'd been a pansy, sucking up, just for what? A little emotional security, some good sex? Katina didn't need that if it meant not having any guts.

She knew when Subaru was active, knew when Akiha was active, and just had to make them cross paths. If they didn't like the truth about her, fuck 'em. She waited for Akiha to come by outside of the mansion, where she knew Subaru would see them if she came by, running or whatever.

"It's still not too cold out yet huh?"

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Akiha had come out to look at the momiji, loving the vermilion red leaves, and had been trailing her fingers over the ends of the branches when she heard Katina. She looked over her shoulder and gave the woman a small smile.

"Not yet. I hope this lasts." She turned her head up to look at the leaves. "I'll be sad when they fall..."

"Nothing we can do about that. Neither of us can order the leaves to stay red and on the trees, no matter how bossy we are." Despite what she was focusing on, Katina could spare a thought for pretty leaves.

A thought. She pushed off of the tree she was leaning against, turning to look at it.

"Nature is a far greater power than I, try as I might to get it to listen to me," Akiha commented, walking over to Katina. She wrapped her arms about Katina's waist, resting her cheek on the other woman's back.

"Though when it does get cold, I know you'll keep me warm."

"You've tried?" Jeez, even Katina hasn't bossed around the ocean or the moon or anything. Her hands rested over Akiha's, gripping tightly. Her body, always just a little chilly. Smaller than Katina.

"Ha, yeah, I'm not gonna let you stay chilly. I'm not that cruel."

Akiha could always get Kris to keep her warm if Katina wandered out for a few days here and there. At least this winter she won't be sleeping alone.

She chuckled a little; autumn tended to put Akiha in a good mood. "I have occasionally demanded the weather to do as I wish before."

Between Katina and Kris, she'll be plenty warm, assuming Katina doesn't cock it up.

"God, you really are bossy, aren't you?" If Akiha's not gripping too tightly, Katina's going to loosen that grip enough to turn herself around and face Akiha.

The moment she feels Katina wanting to turn, Akiha lets her, hooking her thumbs through the pilot's belt loops. No getting away...

"I'm not bossy. I just know exactly what I want and aren't afraid to demand I get it." She smirked a little.

Katina being the one to get away? Oh no no. Her hands moved up to Akiha's shoulders, pushing just a little. "Oh?" Katina rested her chin on top of Akiha's head. "So demanding of the big ol' tough American."

Like hell she was going to step back. No, Akiha stood her ground even with the irritation of Katina standing like she was.

"Yes, and I demand that unrefined mutt moves her head. Just because you're that much taller than me doesn't mean you can use me as a chin rest." Akiha's hand slipped up Katina's back to hook the chain collar and tug.

Lightly.

Edited 2012-10-20 23:59 (UTC)

No, Katina was happy to just be a little pushy. Though having her head on top of Akiha actually made her leverage situation a little worse. She glanced to either side, ears open, wondering just who was around if anyone. "Grrr. The big mutt and the little yippy dog."

"I am not a little yippy dog!" Akiha stepped back, trying to get her head out from under Katina's chin. "You know well enough that my bite is far worse than my bark."

The moment Akiha moved, her hands raised to the much shorter girl's shoulders, her grip a bit heavier than usual. "I like it when you bite, but I never really get a chance to taste you..." Katina leaned down, head lowering and lowering until she could press their foreheads together.

Not expecting the tightened grip, Akiha ended up a bit off balance and had to grab onto Katina's arm to steady herself.

"...you're human. Why would you want to taste my blood when you taste me in other ways?"

"Curiosity. I don't need it the way you do, but..." Now that Akiha was using Katina for balance, even for a moment, she continued nudging her back. "You've had me so many times. What if I just... want to even the score on you?"

Subaru isn't much for a silent entrance, but the weariness of the past few days was like a cloud around her. It weighed her down. For someone who uses up so much energy to get so little sleep was bad enough, but the reason for that poor sleep — the doubt and fear and yes, even anger, that she dreamt about was all getting to her. Badly.

She was returning today to see if she could perhaps get some advice from Kris on what to do about it. Perhaps some kind of potion or sleeping spell? At this point, asking Lambda to knock her out cold was not out of the question.

Seeing the other two together, again. So close, again. So comfortable, again... It stopped Subaru in her tracks some distance away. Too far to hear anything said in a casual tone, but their actions spoke to her in a loud enough fashion.

She just stood there, for the second time in several days, just watching them.

Akiha wasn't always the greatest when it came to paying attention to her surroundings when she was focused on one specific thing, especially when she was emotionally invested. Usually it was anger that made her 'blind' to it, but this time it was the way her unspoken, unnamed feelings for Katina wrapped about her chest. She didn't even realize she'd begun to give ground to Katina, letting the older woman back her wherever she was aiming to put her as she gained her balance.

"Curiosity or not, making me bleed is never a good idea." Her other hand came up to touch Katina's cheek. "It stirs my demon half and I might... bite back. You know I can't drink of you anymore, no matter how much I want to, how much I miss tasting you in that one moment." Her eyes fluttered closed as she recalled. "Your arousal enriches the flavor of your blood."

Damnit. She really wanted to give in, but she couldn't. She wouldn't.

If this had been more accidental, Katina might have missed Subaru. It still would've come out, but Katina and Akiha usually didn't get quite this close quiet this publicly. But, this time, Katina is aware, quick glances, daring Subaru to see her and make a big deal out of it. Hopefully, she can get Akiha pinned against a tree.

"I know. I know all of that, how beautiful you are when you're dangerous, and so close to destroying me... and never going that far." Leaning in closer, Katina slid one of the hands on Akiha's shoulder down her side to her hip.

"Even if you did kill me... I'd be back. That's how this place works. And then you'd be so tearful, regretful..." No matter how much stronger she was physically, emotionally she was in Katina's hand. God she looks so beautiful and enticing just thinking about blood... Katina had no reason to resist, diving in and taking Akiha's lips with her own.

Edited 2012-10-21 22:46 (UTC)

"Stop!"

The word rang out, louder than a snapped twig in the stillness, but only just so. Subaru immediately looked halfway toward regretting the interruption, hands covering her mouth the second the sound stopped echoing in the air.

It was what she should have done in the first place, Subaru thought. That last encounter should not have ended with her quietly slipping away to go curl up with misery and doubt. There isn't much here to fight over, but there are plenty of things to fight for.

Katina had managed to get Akiha back against a tree, the roughness of the bark registering just as she was kissed. With a soft whimper, Akiha had just begun to kiss Katina back when that word rang through the air.

Back tensing up, Akiha froze mid-kiss. Caught somewhere between embarrassment and anger at the sudden interruption, one of those emotions was far easier to accept than the other. With as on edge with her demon-blood as she'd been thank to her night-time impulses, a few vermilion streaks ran through her hair as she brought her hands to Katina's shoulders to push her back and give the half-demon room.

"How dare you tell me what to do on my own property," she snapped, unable to actually see the intruder thanks to Katina blocking her sight. "Skulking in the shadows like a thief... Show yourself."

Despite this more or less being her plan, Katina was actually a little surprised that Subaru had had the nerve to yell out like that. Calling for Katina and Akiha to stop, like it's not exactly what Katina wanted to do.

Being shoved like that by the girl - the half-demon - that she'd been kissing was less surprising, and she stumbled back with little difficulty keeping her footing. As cute as it would've been to see her embarrassed, this was what she was going for.

...hopefully they don't kill each other. "Hey, hey now. You two ladies don't need to get all aggressive with each other."

Her own escape route had been barred by making herself noticed, so Subaru stepped closer just as she was asked— No. She was told to. Who was this girl to give her orders when it comes to something like this?

Subaru stopped when she was in view, her expression wounded but for the frustration causing her to knit her brow. "I'm not the thief." It wasn't supposed to be accusatory, but changing one little word made all the difference. Not 'a' thief...

The icy look Akiha fixed Subaru with was cold enough that it was clear the girl had not missed that accusation.

"And what exactly is it you think I've stolen, Subaru? Unlike some others in this forsaken Garden, I have no need to steal anything. I never have," Akiha snapped back. "Now you seem to be forgetting that I extended you a place here out of the kindness of my heart, and you repay that by butting in on my private affairs?"

More vermilion filtered through her hair. "That I will not forgive so easily."

So they... might kill each other actually. That wouldn't exert any control or solve any problems, but at least she'd know which girlfriend was tougher.

Arms crossed, Katina slowly meandered between the two of them. One eyebrow raised, looking at Subaru, then over to Akiha, then back to Subaru. Her two ladies, so pissed at each other - part of her was almost proud of Subaru in particular for being pissed off. "...god, stop ignoring me you two."

Above everything, Akiha was pretending to not know what Subaru was being so concerned with. That surprised her — something that showed clear on her face. Her stare was now directed at Katina, but not because the other woman requested it.

"I think you should ask Katina." Because if she couldn't provide that one answer, then Subaru certainly had her own.

It wasn't that she was ignoring the pilot earlier, but Akiha was nothing if not severely territorial. Katina was hers - something the pilot had said to her many times - so her immediate concern had been to deal with Subaru.

But what was she talking about? Akiha's eyes never left Subaru - having gone full vermilion - but her words were directed at Katina.

"Katina." The name was spoken sharply. Demanding.

Or Akiha will kill her. That would not be keikaku doori at all, though it would prove that she doesn't have Akiha in the palm of her hand quite so much. How does a bossy, possessive demon girl handle jealousy?

Ah, good Subaru, at least you aren't talking past her. "...heh. I've been having a problem I've been agonizing over how to handle." That voice doesn't make her feel safe. "I was in too deep before I realized what I'd done, but... not too long ago, it hit me. Just tell 'em all how it is, and if they don't like it... there are other women." Not that she wants other women.

"You guys don't know that I've been sleeping with both of you?"

Subaru's body language should be all the reply that is needed. The way she looks as if someone had been shot right in front of her; the way her bottom lip quivers as her jaw hangs open; the way she digs her nails into her palms...

How does a half-demon handle jealousy? That wasn't the concern Katina should have. It was how Akiha handled jealousy. And that... that should make anyone frightened, but only Jessica would understand how terrifying Akiha could get when that jealous.

She immediately rounded on Katina, fixing her with her gaze, and she ground her teeth together a moment before pulling her lips back just enough for those slight fangs she had in her vermilion form to be visible. That slight defensive reaction was the only indication that she was actually hurt by what she'd just heard. But, as always, she channeled her hurt into rage.

"You've been doing what?! You told me you were mine," Akiha snarled at Katina.

Now for the fireworks. Now to see if they kill each other. If they kill her. If this all explodes, and if she should just say fuck it and start over with someone else. Meiling? Samus? She could definitely hook up with Meiling.

...Subaru looked crushed, and it struck something inside of her, but that something had to be weak. She knew it was. No, Akiha was more pressing. Fangs and red hair meant that Akiha was growing angry and dangerous, and Katina turned to her. "Yeah, sorry about that. I was bullshitting. See..." And she spoke up to make sure they both heard her. "I like both of you! You're both fun, and cool, and... hot as hell... and I'd rather make both of you happy, but I'm a dumbshit who fell for two women at once, and instead of just kicking one of you to the curb..." she shrugged.

"Decided I oughta stop acting like a whiny bitch and come out with it and see how bad you'd flip out."

The funny thing is that, so far as she can recall, such terminology hadn't really been used between Subaru and Katina. There was no manner of possession spoken of. No labels. She only really ever answered to the affirmative whenever someone said they were 'together' or that Subaru had 'a girlfriend' whenever someone else prompted it, but not herself.

That could have been denial at work. Or... something like giving herself a safety line in case either of them left, so it wouldn't be as harsh of a break. Subaru isn't used to putting up barriers like that, but this place has a way of making certain changes necessary. Maybe.

She isn't sure of it. She isn't sure of much of anything, anymore. Least of all this.

"H—" Weak it was, but Subaru was only calm because she was stunned. Sometime was boiling on the inside, waiting to burst, but she didn't know whom to blame. It was an urge she had not felt in a long, long time — not even the arguments with Reimu and the fight over the fairy that Subaru had taken charge over had brought these feelings to the surface. "How long?

"How... long did you want to wait... before telling me?" No, this wasn't about being honest with Akiha and Subaru both. She was being selfish. Always selfish.

Akiha wasn't an idiot. As angry and hurt as she was, she knew Katina well enough to have come to her own conclusion regarding this. And it might have even been half right.

"No. She wasn't going to tell you. She wasn't going to tell me," Akiha said to Subaru, shaking her head though her gaze stayed on Katina. "She's only saying something now because she got caught."

Akiha's eyes blazed as she felt her demon side push and demand in the back of her mind, her willpower barely keeping her from lashing out. She was feeling it again, feeling it so acutely again...

"Again... Once again... I'm not good enough. You don't like me enough to choose me and another woman's in the way." Her eyes move back over to Subaru for a moment, and it was almost like looking into the eyes of a demon before she looked back at Katina.

If I can't have her, no one will have her...

The words from before, from back then, pushed forward in her mind. She almost gave in. Almost. Sweat beaded on her forehead as she forced the impulse back.

"...then again, I am a monster. No one loves a monster."

Edited 2012-10-22 05:33 (UTC)

Tension in the air... yeah, she might have to die to dissolve this. Like she said, she'll be back. She's tough, she knew it might happen, and she can deal with it this time. It was her fault, after all, wasn't it? So if she paid the piper just for a little bit...

Something pained in her chest. "Got caught? I knew Subaru'd be coming around this way sooner or later. See, I still wasn't quite tough enough to just drag you both together, and I figured this'd get the message across just fine. Did you know I damn near brought myself to tears worrying about it? About relationships?" She shook her head. "I don't need it. I don't need that kind of shit holding me back, and neither of you seem too happy with it huh?"

Katina turned to Subaru. "This is me telling you." And then to Akiha. "At least you're a monster who tries to be loyal eh? I dunno, I think I've got you beat at being a bitch, though it's hard to say with you." Fuck. This is probably not the way to keep herself in one piece but... she started laying into them, so she can't stop, just deal with it.

Katina might be trying to soften the blow in her own way... no. Maybe it was that she was trying to hit them both so hard that it left them reeling. It could all be on purpose.

"You think... that this is holding you back?" Emotionally? Physically? "All I ever wanted to do was support you..." Tears stung at her eyes, and the quiver from her lips made it into her voice but there is something wrong about her expression. Wrong in the manner that her fingers clutch into tight fists at her sides. She wasn't shaking because she was about to burst forth with the crocodile tears (though they were not far behind).

No. She was livid. "I thought that you... that we had something special.

"I gave you my... my...." She can't even bring herself to say 'my first time', but it was pretty clear that it was both very important to her, and unforgivable suddenly that this woman — one of her newest, but dearest friends; her lover — had just made it sound like that kind of emotional attachment was baggage.

Katina had set it up. She had done it on purpose. And to think, Akiha has begun to go off on Subaru about her intrusion and her accusations. They'd both been played by Katina, and Akiha hated feeling like a victim.

She'll pay. I'll tear her throat out and drink deep of her blood. Take away the chance for the other woman to get a final piece of her. Even in death she can be min--

No, no, no, no... Akiha clenched her left hand hard, purposefully cutting into her own skin with her talon-like nails. She was angry, yes, but she would not give into her inversion impulse. Oh, it was strong, so strong, having been invading her dreams, but she was the master of herself. Her will was too strong and she refused to give into it, no matter how wonderful it sounded to just rend Katina from limb to limb.

Perhaps it was a good thing Subaru hadn't finished her last sentence and revealed that Katina had taken her virginity, because the blonde had also taken Akiha's. The half-demon might have had a harder time controlling her killer desires then. She had to close it all off, become cold to it all or she would lose the precarious control she had.

Blood seeped between her fingers to drip slowly onto the ground from where her hand hung at her side as she purposefully closed the distance between her and Katina. Her voice was cold as ice when she spoke.

"Your false tears mean nothing to me. Your message has been received loud and clear." Her right hand came up, fingers curved ready to slash the woman with those nails, but her hair instantly went black as she forced control over herself. Her hand descended to slap Katina across the face with all of her inhuman strength.

"You are a coward," she said, and it was then that a single tear escaped Akiha's restraint to slip down her cheek. "Get off my property."

Can't stop now. There's no stopping. They hate you.

...just like they should.

...just like she wanted them to.

...what was the purpose of this? What did she really mean by this? Being tough and sticking it to them and letting what may happen happen? Subaru, angry. Katina had never seen her remotely like this. Good. When something like this happens, you get angry, you don't cry and mope and plead.

Akiha, looking so close to exploding, ripping her apart, tearing her open, actually finishing her off. If anyone would do it, it would be her right? That temptation had to be physically painful to resist.

...just a slap? A slap that jarred her, shook her head, sent her staggering back but... a slap. Just that. A slap and a tear. "...you two. Emotionally... so... making me so important to you, when I'm really like this. Look where that got the both of you."

She'll be fine. This was the only way to do it. "I'm outta here. Kiss and make up." A wave to Akiha, then Subaru. "Don't change your mind and come after me."

The slap made her wince, but she was just glad that it was no more than that otherwise she would have probably leapt from the at Akiha without even thinking of the 'why'. Because no one gets hurt around her, was that it? They were both already hurt; deeper than physical scars could reach. Because no one else could hurt Katina in return? That was probably closer to the truth, but at least she didn't act on that desire.

But then Katina was leaving, and she couldn't have that. Not yet.

"Wait!" Subaru barked that out with more conviction than before, prying apart grit teeth in order to do it. Her feet carried her swiftly to Katina's side where she none-too-gently pull on one shoulder to turn the woman to face her. Akiha got a piece of her for that indiscretion, so now it was Subaru's turn. She reached up with her hands for each side of the taller woman's neck as Subaru took one final look in Katina's mismatched eyes, not even bothering to hide the contempt.

Finally she tightened her grip—

—and tore the fastening of the collar apart with all her might.

Subaru stepped back, the broken adornment clutched in a tight fist. Perhaps Akiha didn't deserve her distrust and hate to the extent she initially believed, but it still felt really good to do that regardless. To make it clear to both of them how she felt about that side of the arrangement. Even though that girl was just as equally played by Katina as Subaru had been, right now, she had little sympathy to spare.

Akiha had just been turning to go back inside when Subaru rushed to Katina and tore the chain collar off her. The collar hadn't even been in Akiha's thoughts until then, but to see something of hers destroyed like that by someone else... If anyone had the right to tear it off Katina, it was hers.

Reflexively, Akiha's eyes bore into Subaru as her hair flashed vermilion again. Her power, the unseen, unbreakable strands wrapped about Subaru as Akiha restrained her. The cold was so biting as it leeched the woman's heat, that it came close to making it feel like her target would burst into flame at any second.

Kill...

But it was only for a few seconds before Akiha realized what she was doing. She visibly shook her herself, her non-bleeding hand coming up to her temple, then she turned away. Suddenly, the strands were gone and Akiha's hair returned to black before she slammed the back door of the mansion behind her.

Waiting wasn't Katina had in mind when she started walking away, not unless one of them physically restrained her. She knew they were both faster and stronger, and if they decided to they could crush her like a bug or... hell, break her limbs and take her home, though she didn't think either of them would pull a move like that.

But of course, Subaru was faster, and Katina whirled around eyes cold - almost empty. "What are you..." Breaking her neck? That wasn't the look in Subaru's eyes though. She was angry and sad, but not like that, and when the chain was shattered instead of her bones, Katina's eyes narrowed.

Just breaking that chain that she'd almost gotten so used to as to forget about it. Another connection to them, shattered. Akiha over there was going vermilion again but... not towards Katina, and she backed off, just in case something horrific happened.

Nothing like it. Again, Akiha resisted, and now left, after whatever she did.

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