queenoflogs | Absence makes the heart grow fonder(?)

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Absence makes the heart grow fonder(?)

Characters: Kyoko and Sayaka
Date: July 23rd
Summary: Kyoko's eager to see Sayaka, as she's kind of been on a boat against her will for the past month
Warnings: Madoka spoilers, angst, Hobo-chan and Mermaid being dumb, etc

Captivity had been maddening. Even more maddening was her inability to even fight her own way to freedom from that crazy Pirate Queen once help arrived. She'd really wanted to at least deck her in the mouth for having the nerve to proposition her like that, but alas, the opportunity never came.

At least now she could return to her generally pleasant life in the gardens, though, right? She missed Sayaka. Toward the end of that horrendous ordeal, she spent a large part of her time thinking about her. That whole thing with the Pirate Queen threatening her with marriage had freaked her out, and since then she just wanted to get back to her girlfriend already. Even though she'd refused her advances, part of her still felt guilty about it.

That'd explain the brisk pace that she took in making her way back to their house.

"I'm sure Sayaka will be glad to see me~" she chuckled to herself, imagining the surprise and delight that would surely be on Sayaka's face when she came through the front door.

Except the front door was locked.

"What the--"

Confusion. Sayaka never locked the door in broad daylight like that, unless she was going out. At first she thought maybe that was the deal, and opted to wait a little bit, but once an hour passed it just seemed too strange. Cue the ~~banging~~ knocking on the door.

"Sayaka! Hey, you in there? It's me! Kyoko! I'm home!"

Boy, was she ever not expecting how this was all going to go.

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Several small moments pass after the noise at the door. Sayaka was certainly home. She's been home for about as long as Kyoko was stuck on a pirate ship. Only it just left her a bit... unhinged.

Which is why, when the door eventually unlocks and slowly opens, the first thing to come out is a sword creeping slowly out, followed by a wide open eye, staring through the space between door and the outside.

Well. That wasn't what Kyoko was expecting. At all. She blinks.

"Sayaka? You alright? Did something happen?"

This is kind of freaky.

The sword pulled back and the door opened some more, to show her full face. It looked... exhausted.

"... Kyoko?"

Kyoko just kind of stared in shock.

"....A-Are you alright?"

She really wasn't sure what to make of this. Had something happened to Sayaka while she was away? Did the pirate queen have an accomplice or something?

She didn't stop to think that her own disappearance could be the cause.

She doesn't answer, she just takes some time to truly realize that yes, the red headed girl in front of her wasn't some kind of strange illusion or anything, but was real as she was before.

This brings emotion over Sayaka's exhausted face. But it's not happiness. But one of... anger. Which is soon followed by the door being slammed open from the inside and a flying punch to the face.

Okay. Definitely not what Kyoko expected. She's on the ground now, holding her cheek and staring up at Sayaka with shock and anger on her face, as well as a hint of sadness.

"Oi! What the hell was that for?!"

Tears are welling up in her eyes now. She's petrified now; what on earth has she even done wrong?

And now she starts speaking, her voice sounding amazingly frightened, distressed and freaked out.

"I... I thought I was next... first Mami vanished, and then you did! In that order, like how we all died! I didn't want to know what was in store for me... I've been here this entire time! Thinking something was out there, ready to take me away! But then... you just showed up right back here... as if nothing had happened..."

She softens considerably now, sympathy and guilt reflecting on her face.

"Sayaka...I...I didn't disappear like Mami did. I was kidnapped."

She sighs deeply. To her, the situation had been frustrating and annoying more than anything else, albeit a bit scary. She hadn't realized what it looked like to Sayaka at all.

Kidnapped? That wasn't what she expected to here. It makes her feel a bit... flat in her torrent of emotions. Leaves her rather short with words.

"By?"

"Some crazy bitch calling herself the Pirate Queen. It was really weird. Me and 5 other girls. Not entirely sure what she wanted with us..."

She pauses. Actually, she knew exactly what the Pirate Queen had wanted with them. She just didn't want to tell Sayaka. Not now. It was too big of a bombshell on top of all this right now. After a moment or two of awkward silence, she sighs.

"I did try to let you know what happened. But then I guess messages in bottles aren't the most reliable form of communication..."

Oh. Pirates. That makes sense. Now Sayaka's back on a more angry, but still manageable level.

"Pirates. You got kidnapped by pirates."

Everything seemed normalish right now, but then...

"Ohhhh, you mean like the pirates who threw that party before? That one you went to? Now, I wonder what made you a possible target for them! It couldn't possibly be the gathering of all sorts of people held by people known for being horrible and ruthless criminals! Maybe I should take a look to make sure nothing was stolen along with you!"

It sounds like Sayaka has a lot of pent up frustration.

"And hey, wouldn't you know it, I didn't go! And we were right next to one another, pretty much! But look who ended up being dragged away, the one who went! Maybe this could have been avoided if we all took to the kind of thinking that says one shouldn't be near people who are liable to shoot you for a ransom! At least I can say that about myself, not that I've had much good to think about this last while!"

And this rant is taking a different turn, as she turns it back onto herself.

"Because you know what? Having yourself feeling like a second death is looming outside your door makes you look back on life, both of them in my case! Some people would say they've at least managed to do something with their time... but what can I say? I made it so some jerk can play the violin again? I did something someone else could have done, but with less failure? I single handedly showed off all of what's horrible about making a contract? Yeah, I can be proud of that! And here it hasn't been much better either..."

As usual Sayaka's hatred upon herself has flared up, only now it has become rather vocal.

"I say I want to make up for what horrible things I've done, but I haven't actually done that! All I've done is become horribly bitter, becoming angry at people showing up acting like the real big heroic idiot I used to be, and sometimes even having it work for them, and even wanting for some people to just die! I can barely even count us together as an accomplishment! We've been like this for how long now, and we've barely done a thing! I pretty much died over a lack of love, and when I actually get a chance, nothing happens with it!?"

And finally, she calms down... in her voice only.

"Why is that? I would have thought you would have like, done something really cool too make me swoon on my feet or anything really, since you're always one to take chances and are really forward about things. Is it... is it wrong of me to want more? Is it normal, but... am I just being... bad or something? Is it my fault again?"

Sayaka, if left alone, will find reason to destroy herself, even without reason.

And finally, she just starts crying, falling down and clutching onto Kyoko.

"I don't care if it's selfish! I just want to be loved! I just want to not be alone!"

"...Sayaka....I..."

Oh God. Kyoko felt like she'd been punched in the gut. For all of this time in the Gardens she'd been elated, so happy to be with Sayaka like this at last, but she hadn't stopped to think about how Sayaka felt. She'd been shy and unsure of herself, being young and inexperienced in dealing with anyone outside of her family, really, so she hadn't known how to advance things with Sayaka. Honestly, all this time she had expected Sayaka to be the one to initiate things, as she was the one with actual experience in at least dealing with friends, if not romance, and now look where that had gotten her. She grit her teeth, trying and failing to hold back her own tears.

"I....I'm so sorry. I've been horrible, haven't I?"

"I just said that was me though..."

Sayaka really couldn't do anything about it on her own. Her own misgivings about herself and the fact that even with how she is, she still didn't know a damn thing about what to actually do only made her hold back.

"No! It's my fault! I didn't make you feel like you were appreciated. I...I never really stopped to think how you felt. I just assumed you were happy because I was..."

A long, awkward as fuck silence goes here.

"But for what it's worth...I think this relationship counts for a lot. You've made me so happy. Happier than I've ever been."

For her part, Sayaka just clutches a bit closer. It takes her a moment to speak again.

"... So, now what?"

She was, rightfully so, at a large loss.

"I try to do better."

She whispers that, so soft it's barely audible. She just quietly strokes Sayaka's hair quite a while as she works up the nerve to do what she intends to do next.

Which is lean in and kiss her on the lips.

It's quick and chaste, but the meaning behind it is there nonetheless.

The whispered words left her a bit confused, since her asking was for a more concrete answer. The hair brushing confused her as well.

What came right next lit her up like a red lightbulb and left those lips that were touched upon moving in some erratic manner, as a form of trying to catch up to reality.

Kyoko's mind has gone blank. Her every movement now is being driven by sheer passion. The cliches regarding kisses and conveying emotions without words are in full force here. To her, this is an expression of everything she's been feeling but doing a bad job of showing for the past several months.

As such, it's an enthusiastic but sloppy little display with lots of haphazard movement and the occasional quick gasp for air before she's ready to let go.

Poorly done or not, Sayaka leaves herself at the complete mercy of whatever comes her way. Not that she would really resist at all, she's too tired for that and wouldn't want to do that anyway.

Maybe she will play a more active part another time, but for now Sayaka is just going to enjoy what is happening.

After a while, Kyoko finally pulls away, both out of exhaustion and because she's a bit nervous that she's gone too far.

"...Well. I uh. ....Yeah."

Forever articulate.

Sayaka said nothing. She... didn't quite know WHAT to say. But she didn't quite want to be outside anymore, so she tries to communicate 'go inside' by jerking her head towards the door.

"...Oh."

Kyoko had managed to get so swept up in the moment that she forgot they were still on the doorstep. Blushing profusely, she hurries inside.

Sayaka silently follows, while also turning back into normal, as she had previously been magicced up, getting rid of the costume and the sword that was around. She doesn't really know how to summon those without doing so.

But yes, inside, all things normal now and Sayaka just slumps her head down after taking a seat.

Kyoko follows, taking a seat next to her and leaning on her shoulder. She sighs heavily.

"Hey...I really am sorry 'bout this."

"... Oh? No, I gotta say sorry too... the time I've spent locked up has decided to crash down on me now..."

Right now, relaxation is the main topic on her mind.

All Kyoko could bring herself to do now was heave a huge sigh of relief and flop down on the couch.

"...Sorry. I'm just really wiped out after all that with the crazy pirate and all..."

And then, an idea came to Sayaka, a glorious one.

"... So why don't we just fall asleep right here?"

"Hm?"

A glorious idea indeed.

"That...sounds really nice."

"Okay. I'm going first."

And then she falls over sideways, eyes closed, trying her best to lose consciousness.

From there Kyoko kind of flops on top of her, careful to not crush her in the awkward position. She snuggles up and shuts her eyes, smiling a little.

"...Hey, Sayaka? I'm....I'm really glad we came here, aren't you?"

The answer... is not an answer.

More of a strange mumble, that can not be put into a form of word.

"I'll take that as a yes."

She goes quiet now, laying her head down and letting her exhaustion take over.

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