For a moment, it seems as though Mami won't respond. What she wants to say is caught in her dry throat, tangled up in her head. But then she breathes in, breathes out, and the words manage to come.

"When the Gardens puts us in strange situations, or makes us not act like ourselves.....I wish we could stop avoiding each other in the aftermath." She hunches forward a little, pressing her forehead against her knees. Her voice is a soft, tired sound. "I know it's.....awkward, and uncomfortable, and embarrassing. But I don't want to keep running away from things, especially not my friends. It's-"

Her voice falters in a rare moment of vulnerability, stops, then continues. "It's painful."