... I don't know what to tell you. Now that I'm on point like this... I'm pretty scared. It hasn't been that long since we could call ourselves friends, and I wouldn't want to screw that up. And besides...
If I went along with this, what if it was for the wrong reasons? Like, what if I was just desperate for that kind of relationship, just selfishly wanting to be loved? Or if I did this all out of guilt over everything I've done, just so you could be happy. I think that would be the worst thing I could do to you, even after everything before.
So... I... I'm sorry. I do enjoy being around you, but I think I'm a bit of a wreck over this kind of thing now.
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... I don't know what to tell you. Now that I'm on point like this... I'm pretty scared. It hasn't been that long since we could call ourselves friends, and I wouldn't want to screw that up. And besides...
If I went along with this, what if it was for the wrong reasons? Like, what if I was just desperate for that kind of relationship, just selfishly wanting to be loved? Or if I did this all out of guilt over everything I've done, just so you could be happy. I think that would be the worst thing I could do to you, even after everything before.
So... I... I'm sorry. I do enjoy being around you, but I think I'm a bit of a wreck over this kind of thing now.